as i trod along my life and creative path with God
i have really been hit by some big high's & big ol low's!!
i have felt amazing & like i'm finding my way &
i have felt totally lost and like this journey is a lost cause..
"what do i have to say that isn't already out there in 1,000 other paintings" ..
and
"who am i to try to make a life of artful living!
Sometimes you can feel like white noise out here in the land of
your fellow creatives..
you can feel like everyone but you has a booming art career & can make a
descent income off of what they love doing and they aren't living pay check to pay check like you are..
you can feel like everyone has a book deal & a awesome teaching gig..( when this is so not the truth of the matter.. the grass is not greener .. just different)
BUT then ....
You remember why you do this creative living,you remember why you paint,make jewelry, CREATE!!!and it has very very little to do with any of those things you use to compare yourself to others & that make you feel "not enough"...
YOU WERE BORN TO SHINE LOVE!!!
and share the true story that you have seen darkness & the light won out!!!
{i'm talking to all of us}
{i'm talking to all of us}
YOU are the only you there is and YOU are meant to SHINE!!!!!!
As God's word says :
"You are the light of the world. A city on a hill cannot be hidden. Neither do people light a lamp and put it under a bowl. Instead they put it on its stand, and it gives light to everyone in the house. In the same way, let your light shine before men, that they may see your good deeds and praise your Father in heaven."
Liz posted a video i just watched that so so so spoke to my heart! so i wanted to share it with you guys & introduce you to a girl who as i'm discovering her via her blog is very honest, funny, & so very heartfelt..
her words in this video really sum up how i'm feeling lately .. Enjoy!!
December 1 from liz lamoreux on Vimeo.
something i really want you (i really want me) to think about in this moment.
I love your art and am an artist/creative struggling with myself and my inner critic. I don't sell anything - it's just done for me, and sometimes I'm unable to make a mark, but I'm trying to work that through. Thank you for your blog. One of my mottos is "Born to shine, daring to sparkle" :) Best wishes, Julie x
ReplyDeleteWow...this was an awesome post and thank you for sharing it with all of us. Your words rang true for me as well! I am enough and thank you for reminding me of that today. I also loved the video, which I hadn't seen, this has been an incredibly inspiring morning, and it's only 7:50 am...it is going to be a great day. Thank you my sweet and very creative friend!
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Hi Catina - I'm going over to visit Liz in a moment. I think we all feel like we know one another - who would have thought the internet was our link to survival LOL. What would my grammy say if she were still here? Thank you so much for sharing. It's a little after 7 a.m. and it hit me that it's NORMAL for us to have these thoughts and everyone has them and even those selling/painting working I bet each new piece they feel it over again. The mechanic goes about his work without a worry about what you think - the guy laying blacktop doesn't worry about if it looks good enough to each passing car - and I thought about an author who pours out and struggles with his story...a book that may take months or years NEVER knowing if he/she will sell one single book. They write because they MUST and we make ART because we must - my first meatloaf was my mom's recipe (still didn't turn out exactly like hers), next I tried one from a recipe at work, over time I developed MY OWN by experimenting and now I can't even remember those other recipes ;-) I'm writing this as I discover this truth today all of a sudden! Her video made me see it clearly. As kids we knew we had to practice piano and the song changed and became beautiful as we did it over and over and as adults I think I'm suppose to do everything perfectly "the first" time LOL how silly is that? I think I'm going to get a tablet of watercolor paper and just play around like I'm going to throw them out (but secretly keep them for background or collage). Cheap paper with a "who cares" attitude. Thanks for letting me let this out and by the way I love the work you put on your blog today (like all your work actually) and NO this is not a nice little blog compliment I MEAN IT!! hugs.
ReplyDeletecatina jane....can i just say how much i adore you honest words and your brave soul. i am sure that sounds cheesy. but i care not! i have felt every single one of those emotions and i have felt them many days in a row, many times. i am not proud in saying that - but i can tell you that
ReplyDeletewe all do it. and we do it because we have full exposure to much of each other.
you are getting somewhere - you are more than enough and as one of my favorite artist once said. "we all shine on".
i have had that on my kitchen wall for over a month. john lennon always makes me perk up.
i have a painting planned for that one!
liz is a good one to bring it all center. she has done that for me. she seems to have this gift of saying what we all need to hear, explaining it perfectly.
thank you for posting this today. starting my day with a surge. and i am going to be sending you another note soon.
happy happy sunday!
WOW thank you! I think we all feel this way because buying your art means they had to like it, like you. AND WE WANT IT NOW. We can't be where someone else is on their journey, and we don't know what's around the corner or the next. So I'm gonna create because I WANT to and enjoy whatever happens. If I had a crystal ball would I make art no matter what it said? YES I just realized in what my friend calls a BFO (blinding flash of the obvious). LOL enjoy your day!
ReplyDeletelove your post.. love it!
ReplyDeleteI feel as you feel...
so many so further ahead than me..and I wonder.. why me? Why shud i make it?
hugs thks for your words..
they matter to me. xo